Here I am Lord

Happy Sunday Everyone!

What a glorious day! I know it’s cold but the sun, the pure white snow, the crunch of footsteps, and the  crisp, clean air that clears our heads and fogs up our glasses, are on my list of favorite things. On top of all of that, special birthday gifts appeared in each reading gifted today from the Liturgy of the Hours, in Morning Prayer and in inspirational quotes received from saints in my inbox. Then there was today’s responsorial psalm “Here I am Lord, I come to do your will.” Psalm 40:2,4,7-8,8-9,10

As if all of those blessings were not enough, there was the first reading today from Samuel, one of my favorites, 1 Samuel 3:3-10,19.  Samuel knew he was being called in the middle of the night, he just didn’t know who was calling until Eli clued him in. As Father Dunn said earlier in the week when this reading appeared, “Eli, a man of God, was slipping a little if it took 3 interruptions before he understood who was calling Samuel.” Sounds as if Eli gives us all a little hope!

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How long did it take you to hear the call? How did you hear it? Did Our Lord call you in the night as He did Samuel?  God was calling me my whole life, however since I am rather dense, obstinate and did not have an Eli in my life, I never heard Him until the gut-wrenching 2 AM phone call saying “There has been an accident.”

Five years ago today, Maria, Barry, Leah and I were on the road going to Spring Valley, New York to check out Good Counsel Homes. We were traveling to see if the idea of Joseph’s House was possible. I can remember thinking how unbelievable it was the 2 AM wake-up call received in 2004 had resulted in meeting these most special people 9 years later. I can remember thinking tragedy had resulted in blessings, and prayers were being answered through a promise made to God at the very lowest point of my life. I remember wondering, “Why are you so good to me Lord?”  “What is your plan my Lord?”  and “Thank you dear Lord for answering my prayers by sending these magnificent people into my life.” And the big question, “Do you really want a Joseph’s House, Lord?”

My prayer each morning and evening since the 2 AM  phone call in 2004 has been, “Here I am Lord, I come to do your will.”

I will leave you with the words from one of my favorite hymns named Here I am Lord. I promise you, better yet Our Lord promises you, if you give your free will back to God, surrender yourself to Him completely, give Him total responsibility for every aspect of your life, the joy, even through struggles and tears, will be nearly unbearable to contain and you will be singing this refrain to yourself HOPING HE WILLS to awaken you from sleep each and every night.

God Bless you my friends!

Love and Prayers,

Kitty

I, the Lord of sea and sky
I have heard my people cry
All who dwell in dark and sin
My hand will save.

I who made the stars and night
I will make the darkness bright
Who will bear my light to them
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord
Is it I Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord
If you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart.

I the Lord of snow and rain
I have borne my people’s pain
I have wept for love of them
They turn away.

I will break their hearts of stone
Fill their hearts with love alone
I will speak my word to them
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord
Is it I Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord
If you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart.